Thinking III

There are times that you feel like you are being watched and you are acting out your life like a movie…

 

To you, you are the main character in this movie… Well, all of us do think that we are the main character anyway….

 

You are doing the best that you can in this unfolding process....

 

Yet, there are times you feel you are not doing as good….

 

That doesn’t mean you have given up. It is just the word from others’ hurts….

 

Or the guilt in side you that you think you should not continue to listen to your heart….

 

This is really hurt, as you always want to dream a perfect dream….

 

Yet the reality is cruel…

 

What you don’t realize is… the reality is over when you stop the hurt anyway….

 

Hurt makes you aware of your existence, that why you are here...

 

So? Is it thought that is real? And physical is an illusion?

 

Thus, we choose to see what we want to see? Hear what we want to hear? And feel…..

 

Is that right?

 

Is that so?

 

That’s right…..

 

That’s right….

 

Is that the reason why…people behave differently even though they were born in the same family and receive the same treatment?

 

One can be violent and the other can be extremely polite between a pair of twins….

 

So, what is real? What is illusion?

 

If physical is an illusion, then you are in a dream? In a dream that you are waiting to wake up…

 

To wake up, then you will be able to see the light… The ‘real’ light, unlike in the dream…

 

Mmm… Are you a dreamer in a dream or life is a dream?

 

Most of us can’t control the story in a dream, but we can control our life…

 

But, but, but…. What about death?

 

We can’t control death in life…

 

We definitely not GOD as we can’t control death…

 

People say we are the children of god, yet we are unlike god…

 

WHO AM I then?

 

 

Thinking - II

Life is such never ends.

 

Time is seems frozen in the air.

Everyday you do the same thing. Wake up in the morning, go to work, back from work, have dinner and rest for the day,…..

 

Every weekend you are doing about the same thing. Clean your house, catch a movie if there is a good one, have a family dinner,….

 

Every year you are repeating the similar events. Celebrate New Year, moon cake festival, Christmas, holidays, bonus, ……

 

There is nothing new in life.

 

Life is as though with repetition.

 

S/he is saying the same thing to you again, complaining the similar situations, and again, you can’t do anything to smooth things out….

 

Everything comes as expected. Just like the ach you have on your back, the skin allergy around your neck, the pain on your knees, your vision become blur when reading newspaper, …. And the fear about running out of time.

 

There is no curiosity as a baby in a crib, staring at a colorful toy dancing in the air….

 

There is no new excitement in life like a group of children holding firework in hand running to house to house to celebrate innocence….

 

There is nothing to look forward as a child could not sleep just the night before going on a school trip….

 

No more creativity like a teenager trying to be outstanding.

 

You have lost the heart beat moment like a teenager first kisses the girl/boy that s/he likes….

 

Routine, everything is so routine…..

 

Mundane, all the things are so mundane…..

 

Lack of LIFE, you have lost the ambition that you had in your youth, swear to make a difference in this world……..

Your energy level slowly leaving you, as you feel more lethargic compare to doing the same task ten years ago…..

 

Depressing, you can’t control all the unpleasant events that come to you repeatedly….

 

All the things that you do are because of responsibility and obligation.

 

When is this going to an end?

 

Are all of us life live as such?

 

Are all of us feeling the same in side?

 

How do you break this through?

 

Is it possible to live life fully like what the fairy tales always say?

 

What is it that you should do?

 

What is it that you can do?

 

WHO AM I to make the change?

 

WHO AM I by the way?

 

 

 

Thinking

Sometimes when you are sitting alone, quietly thinking…

 

Why are you here?

 

What prevents you from stopping all the dramas of your life?

 

You know what you want in order for you to have a blissful life, yet it seems quite ..……… impossible.

 

On the other hand, you still long for having the ideal living and think that, …………

 

‘Yes, you deserve all the good things coming into your life.’

 

You may have sought for answers from card reading, fortunetellers, …  which always turn out to be giving you hope or dismay.

 

The answers are seems just behind a door and you will get them all once you open it………….

 

Yet, which door?

 

Which door?

 

How do you know how to open the door?

 

There are many questions congested in your head, seems no one can help you to answer them.

 

You feel very uneasy about your life, though to others you are living in a fantastic fairy tale.

 

Questions in your head seem illogical and cannot share with others, because they don’t understand, they think that you are over thinking.

 

Sometimes you feel sorry that you have become impatient. It is just the way you are thinking and it is not in a casual conversation among friends.

 

What should you do?

 

What else could you do?

 

When is it going to the end?

 

A lot of things you just cannot grasp hold at and it seems to be true. You feel like you do not belong here, and there is something else in life…

 

At times you could not sleep in the middle of peaceful nights.

 

The surrounding was just very still and silence,

 

yet you felt annoyed within.

 

Slowly, unconsciously…WHO AM I?

 

WHAT IS THE REASON AM I BEING HERE?

 

WHAT DO I DO HERE?

 

IS THERE MORE THAN THIS?

 

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT HAPPEN?

 

Thinking…..

 

Still thinking…..

 

My partner,

 

Stephen Liau,

 

and myself are running workshops to help others to improve areas in life……….

 

In order to assist us to write out programs effectively (will run in overseas too),

 

feel free to send me a ‘wish list’ that you would like to know…….

 

E.g. What do you want to know about LIFE?

 

What makes you feel that LIFE is an uneasy topic to discuss about?

 

What are the reasons that you find life is tough?

 

In what area in life that you find is the uneasy topic to discuss or to improve?............

 

Tell me what is it?……

 

What is it?.......

 

Thank you for your reply…………………………..

 

 

Accept Death

Death is human’s greatest fear (well, some say public speaking). I was born in a typical Asian family, death is taboo to be mentioned freely and even joke about. I also learned that death, especially in the young age is unacceptable. Therefore, some Chinese families believe that the elderly are refrained from attending the funeral for the young one. I find it kind of sad, as the parents of my neighbor did not see their son the last time when he died at 16.

 

There was once I was shocked to know that a friend of mine could not take ‘goodbye’ as a farewell. He only likes to say ‘see you’ or just walk away without a word. He just could not handle the emotion within.

 

Death is part of our life. No matter how much we avoid it, death will still occur. Do you realize that the more we resist in a conflict, the more hurtful it is within? It is easier for us to let go of the resistant and ACCEPT DEATH when it comes.

 

It is just like giving sexual intercourse lesson to a group of teenagers. If you banned them from talking about it since birth, it is more uncomfortable when you start teaching them of having protected sex at their later age. Therefore, accept death it is, so that when death happens in a family or friend, it would not be too over whelming to handle for those who left behind.

 

This is like so painful to look at someone who is 70 and trying to look like 30. And it is so peaceful to look at others who age naturally and gracefully. Accept it is and enjoy every phase in your life.

 

Once you have accepted death it is and let go of your resistance, you will find that you handle death better when it takes place and you live life blissfully as free of fear.

 

 

ACCPET DEATH IT IS.

 

Ego

Sometimes unpleasant event happen unexpectedly. We may be overwhelmed with new tasks at hand and have the feeling of ‘when is this going to an end?’ Then for hours at work, you heart beat faster than usual, brain tighten to squeeze the juice out of it. You started to blame and complain, seem like children unwilling to complete their homework. You feel slightly better with people around agree with you of what others’ inefficiency that has added on the stress on you. You have forgotten to pay attention on yourself, or rather, using your negative force to push out to others. At the end of the day, your energy level has drained out so much by grumbling compare to one who just focuses in side and complete the task in silence.

 

Human has centuries history of having ‘ego’. The ego mind is perceived as being more superior than others, that is to make others look bad while being self is the good one, the victim, the innocence,… we have forgotten that we came from the same source and more importantly, we are ONE.

 

It is because of this ‘ego’, we intentionally separate ourselves with our identity. The worst still with crime, war and destruction arise. We spend so much time on chasing after externals rather than focusing on self. We have blinded by the temporary identities of our profession, income level, things that we own, club membership, …

 

Have you ever thought of WHO WE ARE besides all the nonpermanent identity? Can you tell me WHO ARE YOU deep down in side?

 

 

WHO ARE YOU?